Not liking this walk

I am not liking this leg of the journey...I miss the house in Orlando....windows galore...the pond outback.....the constant influx of birds.....I have situated my furniture here where I can see outside the best I can....Ashley and I spent almost 6 hours wacking down vines behind the house.... I can see the cardinals now when they hop up on the fence...and, yesterday, I saw a bunny through the door, through the fence slats...but, I will be honest with you...I hate looking for a job...it's discouraging, frustrating...I worry about the bills....and, I know I'm not supposed too...but, it's hard....I want to give up sometimes....so, I guess you just sit down...have a little cry...and keep going.....I don't know how people do it without encouagers in their lives..I was hoping to get up here and enjoy the mountains....it's tough to enjoy anything when you worry about making the bills.....and then, you have the enemy over your shoulder....telling you that God has forsaken you...He won't come through....He has forgotten about you.....mean things like that.....I quote scripture....and keep going...Jesus Christ....the Lamb of God.....is my shepherd.....I shall not want......